As creators, artists, and humans, do you ever find yourself feeling guilty for not working? In the sense that you plan a night out with friends, have a wonderful time, and then it hits you: I could be at home writing right now. I can be creating new songs, finishing lyrics, ordering more merch, and doing anything related to the pursuit of artistry. It can often feel like you're not allowed to take time off or go out and enjoy yourself without the looming of “what can be done for my art” lingering in the back of your brain.
I fear that sometimes it can take me out of an event or an evening more often than I anticipate. I do find myself spending time with people I haven't seen in a while. I haven't seen them because I've been working or creating so much, which in and of itself is a good problem to have, but can turn into almost beating myself up over being out while there are things that I'm trying to speed up or assist myself with behind the scenes. To a point where I find myself working while out and about. Passing out stickers and business cards, getting people involved online, or seeking out who I can talk to about venues I enjoy being at.
I do believe there is some beauty and enjoyment in that kind of work. I am always grateful to be exhausted from a life I've wanted for myself. As well as oftentimes in those interactions, even if they start business, have turned into the opportunity to talk to some really awesome people striving for the same goal, highlighting their community, bringing up the people around them, and making new friends who are like-minded in goals.
Whenever that guilt starts to put a cloud over whatever evening I'm trying to have, I do note to myself that taking time off to enjoy yourself makes better art. An evening with my girlfriends out on the town could help to inspire the lyrics to the next song I write. Sharing a drink with a stranger outside of the bar could inspire your next move. Conversing with one of the staff members to see how their night is going or any crazy things they've seen that evening, you'd be surprised what they'll tell you. Dancing the night away and screaming your lungs out to songs you love is like free therapy. Putting yourself in new environments helps you grow both as a person and as an artist.
So in reality, I think we are all due for a little fun. With the world feeling so heavy, the guilt can loom harder, but only if we let it. Take the night off. Go out with friends. Go out by yourself even. Get those plans out of the group chat. Eat at the new restaurant. Talk to the people at the merch table or the bartender. Have an extra drink, share the smoke, make new friends, and remember to live a lil bit. Trying to help myself with that too. Hopefully this can be the reminder that we both need.
